Day 12 Sunita vs Lupus

I spent the whole night wincing in pain every time I moved. Every joint in my body hurts and I feel pretty weak. Every time I woke up I thought about how am I going to walk 10 miles. Ok, maybe I can walk 5. It’s Olga’s first day walking with us, I can’t possibly wimp out.

I find this to be the constant mental battle I fight when I am having a Lupus flare. I seem to convince myself I am being a wimp and should be able to tough it out. I am constantly evaluating if I am pushing myself hard enough or giving in too easily.

As I got ready this morning and winced every time I moved, I decided I would be pretty miserable if I walked so I told Rich and Olga that I would take a taxi. Gracious as ever, they both understood but I feel horrible that Olga came all this way and on the first day I can’t muster up the strength to fight through. My hope is that resting today will allow me to walk more as we close in on Santiago.

If I do anything fun today I will write more.

Here’s a picture of my 2 favorite pilgrims as they set off early this morning